防人之心不可無

2006-03-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

常山有虎将，智勇匹关张：汉水工勋在，当阳性字彰。
两番扶幼主，一念答先帝。青史书忠烈，应流百世芳。

2006-01-03T21:17:00.000+08:00

loyalty to country - nation before self

leadership - to lead by example with faith and conviction

discipline - timely and precise execution of tasks

professionalism - knowing your job and doing it well

fighting spirit - never give up, never say die

ethics - to do the right thing without fear or favour

a level

2004-11-08T21:24:00.000+08:00

it is very jing zhang. tmr is the start of a levels. and it is the most difficult and most important paper which is maths paper 1. it is very worrying. i hope i can do well and i hope many p and c come out. it is true that i have gave up chem so it is up to my other 3 subjects i must do well. i am targeting A or B for physics and B or C for maths and econs. this is a good target because if i can achieve it i will get the minimum BCC. i dont care how well or badly i do so long as can go u cos it is the most important. however my preparations for a level is very worrying since i actually started living the post a level lifestyle before the a's even started.

song of the week: Figure.09

2004-10-15T18:05:00.000+08:00

the farewell is over liao. it is the end of my days to sa except to take the papers and for consultation. actually sa is quite fun. it is very relac and my class is very interesting class.my class is interesting cos got funny pple like sam chen and siu kwok and got handsome joseph and got malay who always get laughed at. the teachers teaching my class quite good oso,at least dun have bastards like the kang or wat. it is these screwed up teachers like the kay and others who make sa damn sian. i tink the pple in sa are very friendly so this is good. last time i hate sa cos got many thing s damn screwy and although now i still tink quite screwy i tink there is good to sa oso. so i am neutral on farewell dat day but i bet dat day was samuel chen's most very happy day of his life.

song of the week: 好好戀愛

2004-09-27T17:30:00.000+08:00

it is about 2 weeks after prelims. i have gotten back all my papers and overall i am satisfied wif my results.i have got DDDO. it is not good but it is ok cos an average person will increase 1 grade for each subject at a level so i will be like CCCE at a level if i can study like average and if i study more dan average den can hit BCC requirement liao. out of all my papers i am most disappointed wif physics. i thought i could do better dan D maybe i should get B or C but i got D which is not good. but i am still aiming for A for a level cos i tink is achievable. i must work harder for a levels. and i have to say the joseph is quite good cos he managed to improve from bottom in class to around average in class and although i tink my class is quite lousy it is still a good achievement. joseph is simply handsome and multi talented. and the sam oso manage to pull off some taoism and has steadily improved since bt1, although overall in prelims he still lose me.

after a level is surely go mad liao is gaming like 15hrs a day. i will go and buy the sims 2 and i will get the pro evolution soccer 3 and i will go and get a new com or at least some new parts like graphics card cos my com is quite screwed.wah i cant wait for after a level. the sims 2 damn fun lah last time went siu kwok hse play. and also i will train pro evolution soccer until siu kwok is no longer lonely. but it is still early and for now is study and i hope i can concentrate on study and i hope me and my classmates and friends will be able to dig the a levels.

i like

2004-09-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

i like 王宇捷. she is very pretty and very cute.

prelim

2004-09-12T17:54:00.000+08:00

i cant wait for prelim to be over. 4 more days faster go. i hope i can do well but dunno if can or not cos i am a lazy person. hope everybody else can do well also. otherwise surely feel damn sian.

wow

2004-09-07T11:02:00.000+08:00

i like 王宇捷

secret

2004-09-03T22:21:00.000+08:00

today is chem mcq. but this is not the main thing that happen today. today we celebrate siu kwok birthday. budden it is secret and he do not know it. after chem we go his hse. he is very shocked and very confused to c alot of classmates in his hse. it is very funny because he is confused for very long and he is also very surprised his sister had collaberated wif us. he is also confused because it is not actually his birthday today, it is next tuesday. then we started playing in his hse. it is very fun cos got singing got computer got mahjong got cards and got many pple. play play play from like 11 to 7 den go eat and go home. siu kwok is one of the more handsome and friendly person in my class and so his birthday is very powerful. other pple not even joseph is so influential. siu kwok is simply multi talented. den i go home watch tv i watch 9pm chinese show cos the ger quite chio and i watch my fat obnoxious fiance cos it is very very funny. having played many today, i have to start to study already cos as i said 1 week is very short.

song of the week: by myself

2004-09-01T11:42:00.000+08:00

i am updated my blog because siu kwok ask me to. this few days i did nothing but study use com and watch tv. 2 days later is chem. i am not well prepared for it. i tink i am able to pass chem because samuel say chem is a game. this time is a horrible time. have to study alot. even in holidays i realize is about 2 days each subject onli so cannot afford to waste much time. although prelim is no significance it is important cos it help in preparing for a level which is very very important. it is very horrible cos the roadworks is moving closer and it looks like it will go even further.

suay

2004-08-31T20:07:00.000+08:00

wah lan eh sibei suay got sum roadworks like 50m from my room and it is super noisy disturb my sleep and study...not that i will study alot anyway though. still, i hope they faster finish.

idol

2004-08-29T16:57:00.000+08:00

yap tien chor is my idol

half

2004-08-28T23:26:00.000+08:00

half the prelims is now over. i am feeling very relaxing now although i tink i should not relax cos still got alot. i tink so far is quite ok except for maths which i am underprepared and i must bring it for paper2. i tink i am quite bad cos now is only half prelims over and still got half and still got a level and i am not very prepared so i should not be relaxing so i must work harder.

2004-08-25T17:32:00.000+08:00

econs is like Where's Waldo?

part of me

2004-08-22T14:22:00.000+08:00

part of me wont go away everyday reminded how much i hate it weighted against consequences cant let it go and so its senseless wan to cut it out of my soul just live wif a gaping hole take control of my life wash out all the burnt taste i made the problems in the first place hang my head low cos its a part of me u can hardly c right next to the heart of me heard of me the routine scar new cuts cover where the old wounds are and now im sick of this i cant stand the sandpaper thoughts that grade away on my sanity i rather not even be the man thats staring in the mirror thru me

fuck lah

2004-08-17T20:50:00.000+08:00

wat i feel like doing is attacking anyone i see i am also thinking everyone is damn screwed up what does it mean if i feel violent and i wan to laugh and i wan to cry at the same time maybe i am just going mad and the singapore government is fucking 無理 and please dun ask me what this is about i am none of your business and i am also thinking that i am very happy today

2004-08-15T12:33:00.000+08:00

女人真是無理

twins

2004-08-12T21:04:00.000+08:00

today after school i go jurong east wif hanzi jo and kwok. hanzi wan go c twins at imm and i wan go jurong east buy step by step so in the end we pull kowk and jo go. after i buy the book we go imm study for a while and then go down kua zar bor. it is damn crwoded, about 3 times the crowd from when we just arrived at imm. den they keep saying like regret not going to queue for autograph cos now no chance and i just laugh. den wait damn long for them to arrive like half hr to 45 mins damn sian. den the twins come out wif 2 other guys and kwok say charlene is cute and jo and hanzi say gillian is chio and i am also thinking gillian is chio budden actually the charlene oso not bad just dat beside gillian not outstanding. den they talk on stage for a while and then sign auutogragh for 50 pple den like in a rush go off and the crowd go mad and mad rush. i am mysterious why pple can be so fanatical about some pple they dun even noe and is chio budden not really very very chio and the gers go mad is worse disgusting. i feel dat my time is wasted but at least today i managed to find step by step.

good

2004-08-11T16:12:00.000+08:00

i feel good today. this is beacause i had buy step by step for myself and i am going to start to study, although i less chem study guide, and econs got no step by step. i am also feel good because i found some at home and i just had one.

help!

2004-08-10T14:04:00.000+08:00

i tink i am going mad and i need some

damn sick

2004-08-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

today i found a dying cockroach in my room. damn sick. i tink cockroach is the most disgusting ting more disgusting dan anything else. it was like just lying there and having fits and i observe it for quite long and in the end i throw it out it thrash around alot and i tink its damn disgusting.

mad things

2004-08-01T17:01:00.000+08:00

this few days i have seen some mad things.

1. i saw a madman attack an old man outside paragon. dunno wat happen the mad man just suddenly kick the old man and shout at him and throw a bag at him. the old man like quite shocked angry and confused and just walk away.

2. i saw ji wen in singlet and shorts probably going gym. truly the riot shield.

3. dunno if i was drunk but i saw a cat attacking/playing a cockroach. i wanted to see more but the cat like disturbed by my presence and keep staring at me so i just walk away.

4. not really mad but quite funny...saw kwok whole body turn red when singing after drinking red wine.

5. also not really mad but funny...the joseph was sleeping on kwok bed den zhaoyuan came and attack him and they were like screaming and struggling and its damn funny.

2004-08-01T00:30:00.000+08:00

this few days i have be sick and many things happen. one thing is the service learning day. on thursday my class go margerat drive special school for service learning and we work wif autistic kids. i have learn more about autism and i learn there are 3 areas autism affects are imagination socialation and 1 more. while interacting wif them i can see this like they are oblivious to their surroundings and pple around them. no imagination is like they cannot play wif a toy properly, they may just turn the toy upside down and spin it for example. so play wif the kids for a while then we are supposed to design toys /learning material for them. is damn sian cos its damn long like 4 hrs and i not feeling well. den end the day.

another ting dat happen is the soccer. the soccer interhse loyfat 2 v staff if win den win liao. budden the loyfat cannot win and the staff is quite good wif chiongsters like leonard ong and older teachers but still can play like stanley ong. den come to penalties and staff sure win cos roland is keeper and he is mind games. so have 2 play 1 more match on frida cos the staff cannot be crownded champions. so is loyfat2 v gomes 1. gomes 1 is quite good wif pple like zhaoyuan and the indian. both sides had chances budden in the end end 0-0. penalties and gomes 1 win 5-4. quite unbelievable cos j1 team can win a j2 team wif so many soccer players and malays inside. budden the loyfat pple dun care they just play for fun one so nvm.

den another thing is that our karaok plans were foiled so many times sibei lame. the 1st time is wed. wed we go out play lan, den after dat wan sing karaok and ask jo and kwok come out. budden in the end it is screwed cos of ladies nite out. den the next day service learning day after dat is a good opportunity to go budden i am not feeling well and cos i am too indispensible in singing so they oso nv go. den got after friday after reflections got soccer i got watch and they got play and after dat we can going out and we go jurong east eat after dat go jec kbox budden the package cannot use on fridays, so foiled again. den we go clementi and finally can sing. den today is saturday and earlier is go kwok hse ate steamboat. quite fun lah eat den sing and talk.

good good

2004-07-26T22:23:00.000+08:00

i very like 胡蓓蔚!!!!

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2004-07-25T18:05:00.000+08:00

i am updated my blog because siu kwok and hanzi has updated their blog. nowadays i tink i am too slack. friday skipchem lect. sat skip chem prac. and chem is my worst subject and i refuse to drop chem. wtf am i doing. and at home not very productive oso. i am too lazy and i am having no drive to study. can somebody teach me the formula to be hardworking? i am jialat liao lah. wat i did in the weekend is finish phy prac, do abit maths and learn 少年英雄. now i become effectively quadralingual liao when next time go kbox.

...

2004-07-21T16:49:00.000+08:00

fucking screwed up...

wierd day

2004-07-19T22:38:00.000+08:00

today is monday and is a wierd day. it is wierd cos of many reasons. firstly it is monday but it is friday timetable. it means end very early cos normally dun go for chem lect. actually this time wan go for it cos its revision and is useful. budden got the food chem haven finish and got joseph the bad influence so we dint go. den another wierd is kwok say he got karaok at home. so we go kwok hse sing. got me hanzi and jo go. i am still out of tune but everyone say got improve and i am happy. also i managed to dig a linkin park voice and although not pro can train it. den sing awhile go study. i do slow cos i do faster alone and i am talkative. den after do awile another wierd ting happen. the bh say wan come sing karaok. it is very wierd cos last time we go ktv ask him go oso he refuse. den he came wif peiyun and sandra. den we have to stop doing werk and sing. den i started singing and impressed them and they very happy and bh start singing oso. we all sing song. but the gers shy dun wan sing. den go kwok room listen guitar awile den they go off. it is very wierd cos it seems boh liao and i dunno why they come say wan sing den in the end onli bh sing abit and in the end onli disrupt our studying. it is disrupting and i wan to scold them. den do abit more den go down eat and hanzi went home. den go back study abit den go home. i did a compre today. den one more wierd thing is the lie huo xiong xin 2. it is 7pm and now suddenly the channel u change to 10.45. fucking screwed up. actually at first i nv watch one. is cos i saw got chiobu den i watch. the last wierd ting is today the wong tell us tmr no chem prac cos must discuss service learning day whatever dat is. den saturday must go school makeup prac. damn screwed. what a wierd day.

2004-07-12T18:38:00.000+08:00

today at school discovered sumting good and sumting shocking. the shocking is the chiki. cos last time go kbox sing den i tok cock say i sing better dan her den i dint noe but she was upset den until today still upset wah damn shocking and scary. actually its damn obvious is tok cock one lor. my singing so aw and her is nice. den the good ting is today singing while walking around wif joseph den he say my singing got improve which is a good thing. today got thailand school bball team come sa play. gers lose narrowly but i tink guys win i nv watch finish. the guys fucking pro lor. today is oso the interhouse soccer and joseph the heartthrob is the manager or loyfatt team. i would have watched it budden i wan go home watch 烈火雄心2 cos the ger is chio. i was doing gym earlier den my overall strength deprove which is expected budden running deprove alot which is omost impossible given my level of fitness.den go home and tok to saikei on way home.

2004-07-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

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fucking

2004-07-05T23:12:00.000+08:00

my neck is fucking pain!!!

overspending

2004-07-05T22:14:00.000+08:00

yesterday bryan and hanzi ask me go out play after dat go kwokz hse watch soccer. i say ok and ask the joseph and kwok come out. budden kwok cannot contacted. den go paradigm play pool. it is damn stinky of smoke. met the lixing and gordon there. play pool for a while den go cine eat. the bk got whopper meal 3.90 and i want it but joseph say dun wan. in the end eat subway which cost fucking $8 and is damn not worth. kena trick by the malay again, after i thought about it. den we wanted to go kbox sing. budden no membership. sibei sian. den we still wan sing den we go ktv. it is fucking expensive and no voucher den cost like $16 per person. although it is enjoying. den after dat go kwokz hse. i had to borrow $25 from joseph cos i overspend and next day got go sentosa and because of wat i buy from kopitiam. i tink can is cheaper overall after calculating. den watch soccer and drink drink. i tink both teams are rather evenly matched actually and actually they can go finals is good liao. den go and sleep. wake up after 2 hrs, proving my theory. cannot get back to sleep after lying for 45 mins den i go and read storybook cos i dunno wat else to do and cos it is interesting. den i go sleep and the bryan talk like he drank 2 cans of beer and i woke up and watch tv wif the rest.den zuo boh for a while den i go harborfront. it is sian cos in the end few turned up. go sentosa play volleyball and soccer. not really fun but got to meet my friends. play play play den go bathe den go back the seah im eat den go home.

sudden inspiration

2004-07-03T21:57:00.000+08:00

today i suddenly wanted to cut my hair. i tink i did quite a good job.

ktv

2004-07-01T22:00:00.000+08:00

today is last day of bt. it is chem. i tot i sure F cos i nv touch chem. but after today i tink maybe i can get O. after chem we go ktv. the sam refuse to go den go out wif singh dunno go where. at the ktv got me kwokz bryan hanzi and shin leng. later got the jo ruying chiki and serene got come oso. sing song is fun. the most pro is kwokz. i tink his best songs are 真的愛你, 長城, and 屋頂 although he got many other songs pro and i 4got oso. the gers except shin leng dun really dare to sing. dats abit sian but maybe is their 1st time sing song or cos they are ger den they shy. but actually its nothing much cos as jo pointed out even hanzi oso abit shy to sing. my 真的愛你 sian lah abit screwed up though i am quite familiar wif the song. but i tink i noe where the mistake is liao...maybe next time try again summore got the coupon. den we go far east. met the yinghao there. den after walk around abit den go home.

today shin leng told me something that make me think about for quite some time. she told me dun discriminate gers. i tink i really quite discriminate gers but i cant help it and got reasons.
1. gers are very troublesome. cannot do this cannot do dat. wan to do dis wan to do dat.
2. i keep tinking dat gers are like very insincere like very manipulative like very backstabber liddat. of course dis may not be correct budden from wat i c i cant help having dis kind of impression.
3.i tink gers are very humprey. this makes them irritating to deal wif and more importantly is bad influence to me as i myself is learning to be less humprey.
4. i come from boys school and cant really deal wif gers. summore its like got no common interests liddat.
5. i very scared gers cry.
6. im sexist.
7. i tink gers are like selfish and like self centred like always think they are right liddat

aiyah sian lah but since i dun tink im gay i have to deal wif gers...maybe like after ns or sumting lah.

bt2

2004-06-30T19:59:00.000+08:00

the bt2 is over. b4 it i tot i can do well for maths and physics, but now i tink i cannot get A. so then therefore my projected grades for bt2 is BCOF C5, for maths physics econs chem respectively. chem is damn headache. i will dig it after i do econs. i tink actually i dun deserve a for maths and physics cos i slack too much in june. maybe next time i will so better. but first must relac. after tmr chem maybe will go out play or go sing song. sad that i have no stock at home though.

kwok hse

2004-06-21T22:10:00.000+08:00

today went kwok hse about 2 or 3. joseph was there and we tok cock do werk for a while. den tingfeng arrive and bring chicken rice. i no have because i came too late. den kwokz help me cook dumpling which his sister made. ate 4. tingfeng is kwokz friend from bp and pjc. he is friendly and tok abit about the pjc. den joseph had to go tuition. it was about 5. den do werk den tingfeng had to go cos its his sister birthday. den left me and kwokz den do werk den go eat den go up do more werk den i go home. i had managed to complete 3/4 of charged particles today. today is fun and productive but oso disappointing. i am disappointed because the canto song i tot i learn until pro liao actually i alot pronounce wrongly. tmd. must slowly ask kwokz and joseph for the right pronounciations.

my right mouse button is spoilt. it is quite troublesome. but i dun plan on getting a new one...maybe after ns get a new com. den will have mouse.

cant dig it

2004-06-21T13:41:00.000+08:00

fucking lah my mother is damn gossip monger...behind one of my aunties back she will badmouth her like siao but in front of her she will act friendly...fuck dat leh. are all gers like dat? no wonder i cant trust any gers. at least if i dun like sum1 i wun kb so much and i wun be so 笑裡藏刀.

4g

2004-06-20T23:42:00.000+08:00

today got 4g gathering. as usual everyone was late but more late than i expected. say meet at 1 i reach at 1.30 and nobodys reach yet. den go play soccer. den play basketball. den play soccer. wah damn fun but damn tiring. den go kenneth hse bbq. met the 'yinghao gang' near ken hse. den go and bbq. i am pro at fanning fire. too bad no ... at ken bbq. but still damn fun and relac.

busy weekend

2004-06-20T04:25:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to bh hse for bbq. bh live in park west which is near clementi mrt which is oso last time i go there play cos my cousin oso live there. its a class bbq and is quite fun cos got quite many pple go and cos after eating we go play ping pang. i oso go and try chang which we buy cos its the cheapest...$12 sumting for 6 cans. my ping pang is quite lousy but nvm cos we are not very pro one. after dat we go and play squash cos the indians very friendly and lend us their rackets. its my 1st time playing and i tot its quite hard to hit...but now i noe why. cos i fan fire and i play ping pang so my wrist very strain liao and now i noe cos i woke up my wrist quite suan.

today actually supposed to go temple wif my relatives cos its my grandfathers death anniversary. budden i cannot wake up when my mother try to wake me up and i feel abit guilty cos i am one of my grandfathers most favoured grandsons. budden on the other hand i cannot dig my aunties and mothers mentality...they are like those kind of stupid aunties that will kena con by magic stone. they say of buddhism until like its damn power or wat... say tings like if ur very sick and about to die den keep chanting buddhism chants and u will get well. wtf. can u dig dat. dats y i abit reluctant to go temple one...budden really is i cannot wake up. religion is one thing i really cannot dig. how can u believe that there is such ting as god; buddha or whatever nonsense. i tink religion is just to tell u to like do the right thing or sumting but pple like my aunties and like the muslim terrorists interpret it differently and i beleieve wrongly oso.

this weekend is busy cos tmr still got 4g gathering...which surely will be fun. i tink so therefore i must study today to i tink can do well in physics and maths

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2004-06-19T15:45:00.000+08:00

today is start of my blog